This is long overdue to be giving God glory through this medium for the healing that happened on March 8th, but better late than never. I have been giving God glory, praise and honour everywhere and anytime I can.
One week before March 8th, as I was having dinner with the ladies in my prayer group, I had mentioned to the ladies that I wanted prayer to be set free from worrying about what others think, second guessing myself, etc. I mentioned that I had suffered from low self esteem in the past due to the many traumatic experiences I had suffered. I said to the ladies that I wanted to be set free from this as God is planning to take me forward in ministry and use me in a way that will bring glory to Him. The Lord gave me a vision to show me that all I have been doing is mowing my lawn. There was a root that I kept mowing over, but only trimming it, not removing it. The grass was very green and well manicured, etc. The Holy Spirit impressed upon me that I was doing alot of work to improve my self esteem, confidence, etc...but the root remained. I told the ladies about the vision and we agreed to pray all week and then the following Wednesday we would pray for a full, complete deliverance from the bondage of the enemy and have the root removed.
I cannot begin to tell you how excited I was that the Lord was finally going to heal me in this area of my life. I did not know what to expect but had great anticipation of the power of the Holy Spirit. The Lord has been using us ladies in an amazing way. We are seeing the Lord do awesome work!
The first part of the ministry was that the Lord revealed that curses had been spoken over me as an infant. Some of the surrounding components confirmed that this was indeed, true and from the Lord. We broke off the negative words (such as the term 'spawn of satan'), asked the Lord to bless, prayed prayers of forgiveness and took back the ground the enemy had stolen from me. I am not a child of the enemy, but a CHILD OF GOD! Hallelujah! We spoke these words in the power of the Holy Spirit and praised God! As this was prayed I felt something release from me, like a roar... something demonic. Satan no longer had a foothold and the enemy could no longer have camp in my life in that area. Satan had no choice but to flee as the Lord healed me.
At this point we realized there was more work that needed to be done and that this root was still present. Us ladies went into more serious prayer and intercesion. What happened next was incredible, almost beyond comprehension. The Lord used as as pieces of a puzzle, bringing piece by piece together. The Lord decided he wanted to do spiritual surgery with me and wanted me to lay down and receive. Sooo...as a group we all praised God and prayed. We sang and worshipped, allowing the Lord to do His work.
As I was laying down, the Lord started to speak to me through vision and the subtle voice of the Holy Spirit. I could not do anything but wait, listen, watch and recieve. I was powerless in my own strength. The Lord showed me the root and what it looked like. TheLord, the Master gardener, started to remove the dirt around this root ever so gently, being careful not to break fragments off. The Lord was smiling at me and looked like this job was effortless to Him, the entire time filled with joy and peace. I wanted to help the Lord remove the ground, but I could not move toward Him. All I could do was watch. As the Lord removed most of the dirt, I could see wha5t the root looked like. It was deep, and had many different root fragments. The inside of the root looked like a spine. When I looked into the hole I could see a little whitish worm. The Lord said "Don't worry child" and flicked the worm out of the hole away from the root.
At this very exact time, one of the ladies, whom was praying over me and holding my hand mentioned that the Lord was removing something away. I confirmed she was right. That was the only communication I had during this time of spiritual surgery, of God removing the root, that anyone spoke to me.
After the Lord removed the worm I looked and saw that the end of the root looked like a spine with nerve root endings coming out of it. As the Lord removed the final remnants of the soil, I could see the end of it and it was some kind of worm, white in nature, with a yellowish head. Like the other worm, it was alive! Wow! The worm was in the shape of a human spine with many root fragments coming out going through the soil. I aksed the Lord to mkae sure there were no roots left in the soil. I told Him I no longer wanted this root to fester my soil.
The Lord laughed and smiled, like an inside joke...no job is too great for Him! He then placed a fire, like a ball or poof that burned up the remaining remanants and completely destroyed the root. This hole had been left with ashes, providing a firm foundation for fresh growth to take place, nurturing the soil.
The Lord then asked me to hold out my hands. As I did so, he completely filled up my palms, cupped together, with seeds. Each individual seed had my name intricately written on them. The Lord then took some rich, fertile soil and I planted the seeds with Him in this area where the hole had been. The Lord then watered this area and the most beautiful, unique, interesting flowers started to grow. Karen flowers! Completely unique, with a fragrnce that is subtle yet captivating. I could smell the fragrance emanating from these flowers. They were beautifuly pink and white, with a violet/pink whisp coming out of the centre, releasing this fragrance. The Lord then showed me an open vision before my eyes (in the vision I was presently having) and revealed fields and fields of these flowers stretching for miles amidst beautiful green and lush fields...gentle rolling hills of Karen flowers. Such beauty!
The Lord then mentioned it was time to complete the healing. He said that he would remove this from my spine and I would feel a pain later but that I was helaed. The Lord removed this from my spine...the root that I saw in the ground.
At this point he ladies started to gather and pray around me, asking me questions about seeing myself through God's eyes. They asked me to look at God. Why can't you look at Him Karen? I said, "I cannot see Him, I only see a radiating light shining from above on my face as I look up at Him." However I could see myself looking at the Lord and I was radiating and glowing in His light. I looked beautiful. The Lord then spoke to me four words, that I am His Creation, Beauty, Peace and Joy.
I opened up my eyes. I saw myself through his eyes, truly for the first time in my entire life.
The ladies then started to share what they received in the spirit as I was laying on the ground. At this point, I had not told them anything that had happened in vision while I was laying down. They shared that they saw the Lord doing surgery, that there was a tumour in my spine that the Lord had removed and they saw me being stitched up. Wow! They all confirmed that the root was indeed, gone! Hallelujah!
I got up and went to the bathroom, which was a battle when I looked in the mirror. The enemy started to speak lies and I had to take those thoughts and lies captive (2 Cor.10:5). When I came out of the bathroom, the one lady knew I was in battle and so the group prayed again. We prayed for the Lord to seal this healing and to protect me from any spiritual attacks. At the end of this prayer, the lady mentioned that she saw me as a great warrior for the Lord. She saw a huge sword in my hand and said that the Lord was going to use me mightily and powerfully in ministry. Praise God!
After our group, when I went into the car and sat down on the seat, I received a huge sharp pain in my tailbone where I felt the Lord removed the root. I then remebered the words the Lord spoke about feeling pain. I praised the Lord for the healing the entire way home and am continuing to do so.
I have been walking in complete healing, freedom, and liberty since the Lord healed me. I am not caring about what others think, I see myself as a beautiful woman, am more decisive, etc. I notice there are changes in my dealings with others around me, especialy with family relations. I am second-guessing decisons less and less. It has been truly transformational!
Praise you Lord! Praise you Holy Spirit that you have given us the power to pull down strongholds and to set the captives free! Amen!
